Touch

Touch. A whisper in my ear. Tears fall. Ans suddenly i realize that o love uou. And mone otjer.
Your touch. Us two bodies one soul. If thos is real and i love you then i have all i need before i die.

Tu Retorno

Lo chistoso es que cuando menos te esperaba ahi estabas. Descanzabas en el cuarto que una vez fue mio, en aquel apartamento en NY. Sabia que dormias ahi, y que estabas de paso nada mas. Pero vagamente recordaba que la ultima vez que te vi te deje en la cama despues de discutir sobre asuntos que no tienen caso y cosas que no podemos cambiar. Tenia curiosidad de ti, de entrar y preguntarte como te habia ido, si estabas aburrido, si te irias pronto… y si habias vuelto por mi. Toque la puerta para avisarte que iba entrar y sin esperar que dijeras pasa, entre. Como imaginaba estabas descanzando, pensativo, nuestros ojos se encontraron, pero no nos dijimos nada. No habia que decir. Note que a tu lado dormia el dalai lama, y se me hizo curioso, imagine la razon de tu silencio, y te iba hacer un comentario del dalai lama pero no te dije nada. Entonces me dijiste ‘La ultima vez que te vi, dejamos algo pendiente’ sabia lo que pensabas, yo estaba pensando lo mismo. No hablamos mucho la ultima vez que nos vimos. Como te dije, habia poco si no es que nada que decirnos. Yo seguia en la misma condicion, y tu tambien. Yo estaba casada y con hijos, nada y nadie cambiaria eso, y tu seguias soltero, esperando alquien quien amar y que te amara. Pero mientras tanto regresabas para continuar donde nos quedamos, en nada.

soniando con viejas amistades...

Que significara soniar con una amiga que no veo hace mas de diez anios?
El reencuentro fue natural, como si nos vieremos frecuentemente.  Era obvio que teniamos cierta confianza, pero porque ahora despues de tanto tiempo? Eso nunca lo sabre. Es tan misterioso el mundo de los suenios. 
Ojala pudiese descubrir el significado y entrar en my psyche. Estaria lista para descubrir la verdad de lo que pienso, siento y soy?

regresar al lugar donde vivi....

Cuando pienso que no volvere a soniar con un lugar o  persona ocurre que sueno con el mismo lugar de mi infancia.
Recuerdo que entre en el elevador con el y un grupo de personas mas. Nos paramos distanciados en el pequenio elevador y salimos juntos en el quinto piso.
La puerta del apartamento donde creci estaba semi abierta, y basto con que la empujara tantito para que viera lo que habia cambiado. Estaba oscuro y desordenado. Desconoci los muebles, y donde estaba la cocina era un cuarto y ahi sobre un colchon en el piso descanzaba un ninio que se despertaba al sentir que estaba yo adentro. Rapidamente cerre la puerta. Imediatamente afuera habian varios platos de comida, desayunos, arroz, platanitos, pollo ... un manjar de comida deliciosa y nadie para comerla, asi que el empezo a comer y comer y comer...

dreams and more dreams

I was at my mom's house but it wasn't her house. In fact, I don't think we lived there either. She sat on the couch flipping through a magazine. She showed me an article she was reading and she took out a vial  with rose scented oils.. and she revealed to me that every time she thought about my grandma she would smell roses, so she carried that vial with her as a reminder of those moments. I understood and felt saddened that I had not dreamt of my grandmother for a while and could vaguely remember my last dream with her.  I rode a car to miami. I was in the back seat. We drove past sun life stadium. It was monumental and empty. I took a few snapshots, could not believe my luck.

coming home.

Something strange happened last night. I dreamt about twisters outside my bedroom window in my old apartment in Queens. I also dreamt that I was at my parents house while they were away. When they came home they found me washing dishes and were hungry and I knew they were also dissapointed because I had not cooked anything for them. I felt bad but am a terrible cook. They bought burger king and saved a burger for me. I was hungry too but felt bad that I had nothing waiting for them upon their return. Also saw my brother Chris, he was back from the marines and I saw he had a new phone on his desk and looked like a blackberry but wasn't. He had a funny looking plastic backpack that turned into a frisbee. I also dreamt that I was driving my car on an unfinished road and had to turn around and take another street. It was an awful city. There were swamps everywhere with deadly animals and mosquitos everywhere. It was like a swampland and didn't know what I was stepping on. It was not the best of dreams. A bit scary.

about balloons

we were in town for an event.. balloons , streamers, birthday decorations on trees, plants and on every street corner.. and started to rain we split up unintentionally, there were so many people around. I crossed the street , almost got run over by military horses and made it safely to sidewalk and sat on bleachers. Then Daniel Craig popped out of nowhere started talking ot me very friendly fellow, he seemed familiar with me so we talked, i asked him about his wife rachel and she's alright he said... you showed up didn't know what that was all about.. got a bit jealous you misinterpreted our friendly conversation thought I was cheating on you. Then he got me some balloons and flowers you flipped out and left me.