3.26.2011

Vestido de Novia

Visite una casa donde desde la ventana del segundo piso miraba a la mama de mi tia Juana barrer su calle que quedaba en frente. Reconoci a la Sra, y derrepente aparece mi prima Heidi vestida de novia con un vestido color crema. Era su boda y poco a poco llego mas gente, el novio y se casaron. Extraniada me pregunte porque no nos habria invitado, y me di cuenta que mi mama estaba conmigo mirando la ceremonia desde la ventana igual que yo.  Entonces se apagaron las luces y me di cuenta que en el cuarto donde estaba con mi mama tambien estaba mi abuelita Eva sentada en un sillon, y a su lado estaba mi tio Victor tambien. Unas luces le iluminaron el rostro a mi abuelita y luego a mi tio. Escuche la voz de un hombre hablar desde el parlante, elogiando a mi abuelita y agradeciendole. Y me parecio que lo mismo hizo por mi tio. 
Despues caminando por el centro comercial me meti en un salon de belleza donde segun yo me estilarian mi cabello pero resulta que habian varias personas esperando antes que yo, y aun asi me sente a esperar. Habia solo una estilista y no se daba basto. Por fin me canze y al darme cuenta que todavia faltaba mucho para mi turno me sali y emprendi un nuevo camino. Me meti en una tienda que vendia refrescos y pan, pero no habia nadie atendiendo asi que carge un refresco en los brazos. Sabia que el habia me llegaba a las rodillas, y percibi que se acercaba un cocodrilo asi que corri hacia el fondo de la tienda y me salte la barda con todo y refresco. Di la vuelta al edificio y pense que me hubicaria sin ningun problema pero resulta que habia caminado mucho hacia la tienda y habia perdido mi camino. Trate de encontrar un punto familiar pero lo di con una feria colorida. Intente tomar de mi refresco pero no me supo a nada y hasta creo que me lo termine demasiado pronto. Me detuve ante el puesto de un vendedor de manteles plasticos para mesas y cortinas para ventanas. Tenia mucho surtido y de multi colores y disenios. Se me antojaba comprarme uno pero como siempre ante tanto de donde elegir no puedo decidirme.  

3.13.2011

dreams from weeks past.

I often dream that I can elevate myself and also fly. I can also walk through walls and windows like a ghost. --- About two weeks ago, I had a dream that I was in a classroom building in the middle of the ocean. I looked out the windows and huge waves were converging into one towards me. I thought to myself 'and this is how I die", but I didn't, I managed to ride with the waves, and I new that the key to survival was to find the shoreline, but there was none in sight. This was two weeks ago. Two days ago there was a massive earthquake in Japan that caused Tsunamis to wipe out it's coast and devastated hundreds.

As for last night, I had a nightmare. I saw a new neighbor and said hello to him when we crossed each other in the hallway.  Then I saw him in my home. I had no idea how he came in. Then realized he was a ghost.
I was frightened, but then my dream changed. I was going to jump on a bus in a metropolitan city but forgot a camera bag on a bench inside a walmart. I knew it had to still be there. One of my nephews was there last, and I was positive he may have kept it with him thinking I had forgotten it. When I got to the bench he was gone and so was the camera and bag. 

3.06.2011

broken glass

It's been such a long time since I wrote about my dreams.
I clearly remember dreaming about fixing my broken windows. It was windy and cloudy outside and looked like it might rain, but what worried me the most was that thieves could break into my house. So I taped them up and shut the one that was wide open. It was a temporary fix but made me feel better anyway.

11.26.2010

breaking and entering

I've been having weird dreams lately. Two nights ago I dreamt that my neighbor and a mob of his friends tried and succeeded at breaking into my home. I was scare because I was with my children. I told my son to dial 911 but his attempts were unsuccessful. When I dialed, I was unable to dial too. It was horrible, I felt helpless and woke up out of breath.

10.16.2010

Mis Hombre Aventuras --- My Men Adventures ---------!!!!

So we reunited again during one of my travels to Latin America  only this time we knew that we were caught in  what could potentially lead us to a riveting affair we waited for twenty-something years or so.  You looked older, and though in reality you are younger than me,  you had not aged as well as I, yet those features I liked of you when we remained, your blond hair, fair skin, tall, and lean body..intact.
You led me to your condo by the beach, it was huge. I knew we would have some fun there, catching up... but instead you wanted to make love to me for lack of a better word. The word "sex" occurred to me but sounded  cheap and meaningless though I knew perfectly well that we weren't in love, and never were and suddenly realized that I didn't want to be with you anymore and did not have the heart to turn you away. So I went to the bathroom disrobed and took a shower hoping that perhaps you would join me and I would have a change of heart but that didn't work. You waited for me half naked on your bed and I was taken away by your gorgeous body, how could I be so lucky and not want to sleep with you? And its true, I didn't want to but willed myself to you and we kissed, yet the kiss lacked passion, feeling, and I felt it though I doubt you felt that way too. You wanted to have unprotected sex and I cleverly said ' you don't know where I've been, nor do I know where you've been...' and you realized that I was right and fumbled around looking for a a condom.  I was buying myself time, but my hear was not with you so as you looked, I wrapped my arms around you and whispered in your ear...'you know, I had the biggest crush on you in junior high school, and when I told you how I felt, all you said was 'thank you'. --- and that's the truth, I remember it well, could not forget that to this day...and as I reminded you of that moment, I smiled, because it didn't matter to me anymore, it was something that I just remembered as a funny anecdote , because boys can be so funny and imature when they are young. And there I was naked, about to make love to you.... about to have you and I didn't want you.
You didn't sense this.. and as I reflected on this irony of the moment,  I realized that I could not justify making love to you without loving you and decided to walk away forever.


10.10.2010

You and I ... till the end of the World

It's been a long time since I've met you boy, and part of me thinks I've  forgotten about you  and yet part of me knows that I don't. But last night, you chose to manifest yourself and creep out of my subconscious right into my dreams. For the record, we didn't hold a serious relationship, we drifted together one summer night on the bus ride to Acapulco... and fell in love in a series of meaningful yet playful conversations typical of eighteen year old's, so as you can imagine they were as deep as can be when you are that young.
But going back to my dream... we were back in time, but older. I knew if because I noticed wrinkles on my face, and also noticed them on yours when I checked briefly as you pressed me tightly against your chest. We enjoyed each others company but there was no sexual tension. Who know where it went, but I wanted to be there with you nonetheless.
We enjoyed the cool night breeze as we gazed up at the stars from the rooftop of my house. I knew it was bizarre sitting beside you in silence when we usually have so much to say. My young cousin was desperately trying to draw your attention, but we just stared at the spectacle she made of herself. She was pretty, but not as pretty as me. I was secure of your affection towards me... (you always made me feel that way.)
One winter evening and barely saying a word, we found our way to Canada and then we boarded the next train to Alaska.  The cold weather didn't stop us, we were bundled up. If love led the way, we knew instinctively that we were destined to nowhere but we withstood the heartache of the inevitable...only a few more hours and we would be there. We witnessed how others prepared for the end, the government rounded up the last of the few that were still trying to leave, but you and I knew there was no way to save anyone anymore, we knew it though we didn't say it.
The tides rose on the horizon, the open sea was monstrous, menacing, promising to come and wash us away if we didn't flee. Officers led us to an abandoned school, sickly children were nursed by volunteers. I knew we wouldn't survive, nobody would. Love nor God could save us from the inevitable.... the world was running on time, we were on a crash course collision to the end of time as we know it...

7.29.2008

the wedding revisited

Most people would say that people can forget other people, but I'm not like most people. I have a tendency to remember a lot of strange people.As I prepared to go to my cousins' wedding ( the one I went to three weeks ago ) I realized that I had packed so many things, and they were scattered around many different places. I found pairs of earnings. I even lost my cell phone or had no signal or something in that nature. Then I thought I saw him, and the more I think about it, the more I'm convinced it was him. He saw me too, and we both realized we were once again in the same place. We didn't have a conversation yet we knew we had finally made contact. He was dressed nicely, had a vest on and a pair of corduroy jeans. He looked very stylish, not unlike the young boy he used to be. Somehow I thought he would be old and fat, but he did not disappoint my expectations. I knew I had changed, and reached a dead end and realized I had not payed much attention to where I was driving. I sought a chance to speak with him, but the more time passed the less chances there were to strike up a conversation.
I'd lost my children s' clothes and feared it had been lost.

Touch

Touch. A whisper in my ear. Tears fall. Ans suddenly i realize that o love uou. And mone otjer. Your touch. Us two bodies one soul. If tho...